Someone asked me about a recent incident in which I had done something wrong and was making amends for it and am involved in recovery now and have been sober for more than four years. The person had heard about it and asked about it. I do not trust the person and this one has been disrespectful of my sobriety on many occasions. The confrontation triggered shame and anger. Not fear, but loss and regret. I have a process for dealing with these occasions and am doing well.
The trouble with trauma is it takes years to heal and learn new responses to the catharsis in life. Trauma stays with you but there are ways to unpack it and deal with it in a loving way.